Unpacking Baggage

Just going through my luggage, clearing out some things to make way for enlightenment

I am so critical of myself that, although I appear to accept praise gracefully, I secretly dismiss kind remarks. I always think that if folks only knew how easy it was, they would save their praise for someone deserving. One of the most difficult journeys I've had is to the realization that I am worthy of some praise. Of course, I continually acknowledge that God gets the glory for EVERYTHING, but I seldom acknowledge that God and I collaborate on my projects. I am blessed that I am accomplished in so many areas, but I really don't see the greatness in my actions as others do. I am simply doing what I can.

I have yet to realize how far I've come because I feel like I have so far to go. But some words from Reese Witherspoon (whom I absolutely ADORE) really struck me. In the September Issue of Reader's Digest, (Ok... it's not Esquire, but it's still informational) when asked if her life seemed like a dream, she replied that she is sometimes overwhelmed by the opportunities. "But it's not like I fell off a turnip truck and suddenly became who I am. I really have worked hard for it, and I have to acknowledge that." Amen, Reese!

Life speeds by so fast that you really have to take notice of what's going on. I certainly have not led a charmed life. Events in this year alone have tested my faith, but when I look back, the good completely overshadows the bad. Overall, it's been a great run. I can't complain for two reasons. First, because God has been so very gracious that complaining would be akin to a slap in the face... second, everything that has occurred up to now has shaped who I've become, which is not a bad specimen of a human being.

In spite of hard work, I really do believe that things have come easy to me in this life, but it's only because I compare it to those who came before me. That helps me remain humble.