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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
What a nice guy!
I'm actually referring to myself. Today I actually realized what a truly unselfish, yet selfish person I am. I'm nice to the point that I might be slightly stupid and insecure to the point that I don't express my feelings. For some ridiculous reason, perhaps it's a fear of losing friends or of hurting feelings, I let folks dump shit on me. I always think about what they are feeling to make them do or say hurtful things, even when the hurt is directed at me. I almost always consider the feelings of others before my own, which usually leaves me wiping off shit. I'm not referring to any particular instance, although one has certainly fueled this entry.
Someone once told me to find the lesson in everything and I'm learning to do that. I now know that I certainly do not give enough of myself emotionally. I attempt to compensate for it by being accommodating in every other area of my life, but I fail to open myself up to avoid the pain that could certainly result. I'm doing myself and others a great disservice. I absolve to learn to share responsibility and not take an entire burden on myself, thereby absolving the other party. I absolve to learn to say, "I'm hurt" when unjustly attacked, instead of understanding the pain of those who lash out. Finally, I absolve to express anger when I feel it and not retreat into myself.
Posted by Rodney ::
7:31 PM ::
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